My best friend told me to stick to this: “Don’t overthink things. Just do it.”
You know, I really do feel like I’m at this stage where I’m really getting better. Perhaps I can move away from step 2 (learning to cope) to step 3 (readjusting to normal life). I mean, I’ve said in the past that I’ve “felt better” but then that always comes back to bite me in my ass. But this time… I dunno. Feels kinda different. Feels kinda good, actually. Then again, I’m constantly reminded of what I have to deal with (pretty much for the rest of my life) every day—granted I don’t forget. It’s kinda weird. I usually forget when I’m having too much fun and end up going to sleep forgetting the necessary routine. But that’s not to say that the nights where I do complete the routine aren’t good nights. I don’t know. Perhaps I’m thinking too much. Hahaha! I need to stop that. It’s kinda hard, though, really, when I now have a physical manifestation that acts as a perpetual reminder. But hopefully, in stage 3, it’ll become part of “normal life” (whatever the crap that means anymore) and I won’t have to think too much about it and overanalyze it. I really, honestly feel like I’m getting better. But we’ll see. I’m still fighting my hardest every day. Results are finally showing, so I’m glad. At least I’m not at a standstill anymore. There’s some movement. Hopefully it’ll remain forward from now on.
the story of a girl: It’s been a long day week. Talk about an emotional roller coaster....
It’s been a long
dayweek. Talk about an emotional roller coaster. College is such a bittersweet subject. I don’t want to leave, but I feel like I’m ready to move on with my life. I’m ready for the next phase. But it feels like the past can haunt you so much if you feel like you have regrets. Why…
Take it from someone who constantly looks back… in the long run, as long as you YOURSELF are satisfied and HAPPY, it really is the most important thing and the thing that should really matter, not just to you but to everyone else. Trust me, Tina, you’re one of the few people I admire who has always followed her heart, and that takes more balls than striving to achieve any academic goal. Don’t fret too much about it. And trust me, following your heart beats pushing your dreams aside to attend to what others ask of you. TRUST ME ON THAT!! SERIOUSLY! (Congratulations, by the way. You’re GRADUATING!!! :D)
San Gennaro Feast - Las Vegas, NV
Dude! Another reason why I might go to Vegas one day!! I LOVE THE FAIR!!! :DDD
